I wish I could start over and do things differently. I see I have lost my love for You. I just want a fresh plate of new beginnings and new goals. I am so afraid of what I will become if I stick with You and I don’t know why. I don’t understand depression and why I have it so severely. It really kills me to think of my future because I have no clue where I am going with all this. I hope whatever You have for me is awesome because I cant deal with this annoyance of not knowing where I am going anymore. If I am supposed to shoot for the Kingdom, can You teach me how to reach for it? I feel stuck and alone…can You help? Will You help me?